Suicide Free Write

In Thirteen Reasons Why, Hannah Baker killed herself. I have never known anyone who has killed themselves, but reading this novel makes me feel like I do. It also makes me think of myself and how others see me. She looks ok on the outside, but on the inside she is torn up. She goes through drastic changes emotionally and physically, but no one can see that she is going to kill herself until after she does it. I have never thought of suicide before, but I have gone though moments like this. Like now, for example. I look fine on the outside and I seem happy and composed, but during the last few weeks of every semester I start to freak out inside my head. I change myself physically, a sign of suicide according to 13 Reasons Why, but that’s not why I do it. I need a change every once in a while, so I show it on the outside. It is easier to change one’s physical appearance than one’s mental functions. During the last few weeks I also change socially. I will start getting edgy with people and start showing signs of withdrawal, another sign of suicidal thoughts. I could never be suicidal though. I know I would hurt too many people is the thing. If a person were to kill themselves, they would usually be afraid of how much pain they would go through. For me, I would be afraid of the people I had left behind and how bad they were hurting.